{"product_id":"the-boy-i-left-behind","title":"The Boy I Left Behind","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan\u003eAcrylic on canvas.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan\u003e40x40x2\"\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThere are parts of you I can’t reach anymore. Whole rooms in our mind sealed shut like they never existed. I don’t remember much before that first attempt—not because it wasn’t real, but because it was too real. Because you were too young to carry what they gave you. And I need you to know something without excuses, without pretending it “made us stronger.” It wasn’t your fault. Not the fear. Not the silence. Not the way you learned to shrink. Not the way you learned to watch every face in the room like it might turn into danger. You weren’t weak. You were a child trying to survive something you never deserved.\r\u003cbr\u003e\r\u003cbr\u003eI see you now. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the first time I tried to disappear, because I didn’t understand I was taking you with me. I didn’t understand that when I wanted to leave this world, I was also leaving you alone in it—still small, still trapped, still waiting for someone to tell you it’s okay to breathe. I’m sorry I didn’t protect you. I’m sorry I turned pain into a personality. I’m sorry I became a man haunted by the same things we begged to escape. I’m sorry I turned out worse than we ever imagined.\r\u003cbr\u003e\r\u003cbr\u003eBut listen to me… you are not guilty for what happened to you. You were never “too sensitive.” Never “dramatic.” Never broken. You were injured. And nobody should have asked you to pretend you weren’t bleeding. I know you didn’t want to die. I know you just wanted the hurting to stop. And I’m sorry the only mercy we could imagine was vanishing. You deserved mercy while you were still here.\r\u003cbr\u003e\r\u003cbr\u003eI don’t know if you’ll forgive me. But I need you to hear this: I’m still trying. I’m still fighting. I’m still building a life with shaking hands. And if I turned out wrong… it’s because nobody taught us how to turn out okay. But I swear I’m trying to become someone you’d feel safe standing next to. Someone who finally looks back at you and says, “You did nothing wrong.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Nesta Chavarria","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":42243478683751,"sku":null,"price":2790.0,"currency_code":"CAD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0063\/3038\/4487\/files\/1_1773219898_57758.jpg?v=1773247841","url":"https:\/\/helloart.com\/products\/the-boy-i-left-behind","provider":"helloart","version":"1.0","type":"link"}