Acrylic, flashe, ink, coloured pencil on canvas.

32x46"

A wave of hatred flooded my body on the day he told me the truth.
And I clung to it. The hatred protected me. Sheltered me.
Kept me safe, until it was too heavy to carry.

Hate was never meant to be a part of my heart, mind, or my body.

I worked up the courage to let the hate go, accepting that it might make room for the love I once held for him to rush back in.

Instead, when I asked the hatred to leave, it took the love I had for him with it. And the most beautiful, brightest light of clarity filled the void instead. I didn’t know I had so much space for freedom. I had forgotten that I am sovereign. I am truly free.

*This painting was inspired by the song Gorgeous by X Ambassadors*

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The Love Letters (To My Exes) collection is a cheeky exploration of “love” and dating from the artist’s perspective as a confident, intellectual woman in her mid-30s. The artist playfully reflects on past romantic encounters to examine which were ruled by the heart vs. the mind. The heart is the true centre of human intelligence, not the brain. The heart is all-knowing, in its intuitive ability to discern when to push or pull, expand or retract. The brain’s tendency to overthink and overanalyze is not a sign of intelligence, but an anxious attempt to intellectualize emotions in order to avoid actually feeling them.

This playful collection explores the themes of identity, attachment, moments of clarity and cathexis that are prevalent in the search for love. The artist aspires to be vulnerable in exposing the various ways she has celebrated or abandoned parts of herSelf in her past relationships and encounters, and the feelings of triumph, shame, growth and sadness that have been part of her journey in dating.

The short excerpts that inspired the works in this collection were taken from the artist’s personal journal and paintings were created with specific songs in mind.

Sovereign

Tania LaCaria

1,875.00

Painting

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